haiyo....sch going 2 start le...haiz...den wif da new system n everything...everything seems so strange....

coz sch reopen...theres so much 2 do....hav 2 finish doorgift by thurs n np webbie by fri...den hav 2 finish banner too.den all my hw haven do!!!!oh no....i still got 10jian bao,2 yue du bao gao,some chi ws n some bio research....haiz....i still dun feel like doing sia...

yesterday went 2 sch 2 paint banner...i n ml end up washing toilet....coz we wash paintbrush den the sink dirty....den yhe cleaner ask us clean it up....so we end up washing toilet....we wash till da colour corode sia.....mayb its coz we use thinner..wahahaha....den our hands all got paint....but we nvr wash wif thinner.den ant,zq n ml wanna zhao...so i n jaime also go wif them....den i n jaime go eat kfc....we end up eating paint!!!!da paint dissolve well in oil so we eat paint wif da chicken..hahaz....lucikly nvr kena food poisoning...until now my hand still got paint...haiz...somemore red paint....look like blood....hehe...later ppl think i murder some1
k...must go do hw le




life has been so boring *yawns*almost nth 2 blog abt...everyday slp n slp nia...onli last sat was fun.wee~

last sat was hike...meet in sch at 7...den ml came back frm china tt morn n she came!!yeah!coincidentally she also end up in my grp!!hahaz...gd sia...last yr n tis yr we also same grp...ml!!we r fated 2 b together!!!wahahaha....hmm...my grp also hav benny....yeah...my squad jan born all same grp so qiao horz...den also hav yw n yi jun n nas...benny n ml hor...bth them...both got motion sickness de...look like they gonna puke any min.den tt yi jun...wan save $ den always wan 2 walk....wads da mrt 4??????????!!!!!!!!arghh!!!!!!!den yw n nas will say ok lor....so we end up walking....stupid sia...end up last...so paiseh....every1 finish le sit there relax n we still on da way bac 2 sch...haiz...den take photo..ci stand behind my squad all jump den cannot see them...so funny....
den bk's bday!zh say bk wanna play bball....so go bball court watch them play...in the end he also nvr play=.= den bk say wan 2 go hawker centre eat...but past by BK..so we decided 2 go there since its bk's bday...(chim hor)den i said..'scarli see CI there'...wa piang...really they there...i prove myself 2 b accurate again....shld hav juz kept my mouth shut....>.<
so eat le...we go web play...all the guys trap themselves up there while i n jaime stand below ready 2 grab ppl...wahahaha*evil grinz*...den joseph help jaime pull wj's pants...obscene sia...jaime scream n look away...i tot she wanna see???anyway...they sabo wj n hang his bag on da top...den wanna sabo jaime too...but she too pro le...always ready 2 grab anybody who comes near...so end up sabo me....(guys....dun use me as substitute can?)den tt anthony!!!u beta watch out!!!grab my bag....u watch out...1 day urs will go missing!!!hahaz...den i n jaime pull wj sleeve...i think pull too hard le...it tore!!!!wahaha....nice sleeve!!!den wc also kena pulled by me since wj escape...den luckily got 1 irritating xiao di di help me take my bag...tt xiao di di hor....haiz...i think he too lonely le...ke siao wan...ask him attack who he listen...den follow behind jaime...gave her a scare n she screamed...hahaz


den today go paint banner....stupid la....i draw 5 stars 4 da crest den kena critisied....u all so pro go do urself la....wth...den jaime...u say dun laugh at others rite....den u also!!!so dun say others,do it urself too...i laugh at zq star 4 revenge wan lor...u think i as bo liao as u all ar...den others laugh at my star u follow them...i laugh at other ppl star u say me...wth...attitude me izzit....fine!

hehe....den do christmas shopiing..wee~ i luv shopping!!!!bought stuffs 4 ppl...so if u wan christmas prezzie....must give me too..den i give urs...or else i keep till ur bday...wahahaha...




today gek come my hse...so long nvr see her le,miss her so much.wahahaha.

sian...haven finish my hw...die le...left like onli 2 wks more...somemore still hav 2 do banner...haiz...luckily we sew finish the banner le.erm...actually mostly is jaime sew wan...i keep sewing other pieces of cloth coz i nvr straighten the cloth.den hav 2 redo...haiz...den i cut myself wif the pin...wth...i juz not cut out 4 sewing.now left painting the banner...haiz...
den alvin lim came bac as ci...scary sia his face...burn till so red...den frm far look like s cube >.<

tmr got hike!it seems fun!wee~can take bus n mrt...so unlike past hikes...wahahaha





haiz...dunno wad happening 2 me sia...recently so emotional den get agitated easily...juz read thru jess n kris blog...somehow i find tt wad they wrote r similar to wad i m feeling now...
lets see...

jess-
i dunn0e what's rong with mi.i'm so sensitive.mebbe tht's y u people like to piss me off so much.is tht y?so fine. i'm too tired to argue.
hahaz...i m sensitive...n ppl like 2 piss me off [e.g jaime,wq,jen]...n yar...i m tired n i dun wish 2 argue anymore...tis few wks like argue till siao can...i cant stand it any longer!!![dun tell me 2 sit]
kris-
i'm inferior that's why.. everyone around me is so much better than i am.. everyone. anyone. just pick someone off the street. obviously you can tell they're better den i am.
yup...tts how i feel too...mayb it's inferior complex...but i think its true...everybody IS beta den me...
so many times i feel so hurt by wat you say. so many times.. yet i choose to shut up becos i dont wanna start an arguement. of cos i'm angry. of cos i'm sad. of cos i'm hurt. i'm very hurt. but i'm so afraid to tell you cos maybe you'll get angry. den things will get worse. i'm not blaming you or anything.. i love you just the way you are..
yup...i m easily hurt by wad ppl say...but i choose 2 speak up!!!but wad i get?even more lameness...didnt wan 2 start an arguement...but u all leave me no choice...u all hav gone too far...
u all knew how i felt...but u all juz continue...i noe u 2 having fun ganging up against me...but its juz too much...
esp wq...u saw my blog...n u said sry...but u did it again...den u said sry AGAIN...but u still continued...i juz dun understand y...y izzit tt everytime jaime is arnd u will b liddat?u 2 juz luv irritating me hor.i hav heard enuf srys frm da both of u!
n da 2 of u...like 2 b my matchmaker izzit?or izzit i m always bothering u 2 n u 2 cant wait 2 get rid of me? if tts da case...i m sry...i will not bother u 2 again.

n i dun wish 2 tok 2 both of u together again...its a pain...too painful 4 me 2 endure...mayb 3 is really a crowd...i will b da odd 1 out...i juz cant fit in wif u all...*cry*
everytime i leave da conver,i will wonder...'do my departure even affect them?mayb they r having fun now,not even caring if i m there.mayb they r happier now tt i m gone...'

when gh tell me tt they r worried abt me...i tot tt mayb they really understand me now...mayb if i go bac they will stop ganging up against me...but i was utterly wrong...they acted though nth happen n continue...haiz...y m i stupid enuff 2 believe gh?if they really worried abt me they can msg me themselves...dun tell me their hp spoil...they juz dun hav da heart to...*sob*anyway...y shld they care abt me since they r still having fun?

k...enuff abt them






y m i always da odd 1 out?

eversince i in pri sch i m da o x3...still rmb at da student care i m 1.i dun understand y either. wad hav i done wrong 2 deserve all these? many times i wonder y m i born...mayb god made a mistake....or izzit HE made me 2 let every1 laugh at? or vent their anger at? mayb tats the purpose i m born....i m gd at nth...really nth...i m juz a useless person...juz a joke...

last time ppl use 2 tell me its bcoz i cry too easily...but is tat true? NO! i tried changing...i tried 2 fit in...but still i m da o x3...nvm...put da past behind me...now?i made frenz who i think r my true frenz...but wad they do? gang up together 2 laugh at my weakness....bluff me every chance they hav coz i m naive...i tried 2 tolerate everytime they does tat...but wad they do?they continue! so i told them tat i hav reached da limit n they beta stop....but do they stop?NO! they tot i playing wif them n they continue making a joke out of me....wth....

they onli stop when i really blow my top...den apologise...wth...everytime they does tt....so next time i go kill ppl i juz say sorry lar....its enuff i tell u..ENUFF!!I CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER!!!
wad kind of frenz r they?wif them arnd....i dun need enemies...i juz dun get along wif any1...dun noe y...i m who i m. i cant change myself juz 2 fit in...if they wanna b frenz wif me...den beta accept me 4 who i m! i hav no sense of humour!so dun bother testing...esp by being lame

play jokes occasionally i dun mind...but y izzit tat i m always da 1 kena targeted at? coz i dun fit in wif da rest of u? den tell me!!! dun need 2 do tt!! add me 2 conver onli 2 see u all having fun izzit?how well u all get on...den i say sth all start giving comments...like i dun fit in liddat...every word of mine is juz rubbish...all wrong...