-Sunday, December 12, 2004
haiz...dunno wad happening 2 me sia...recently so emotional den get agitated easily...juz read thru jess n kris blog...somehow i find tt wad they wrote r similar to wad i m feeling now...
lets see...
jess-
i dunn0e what's rong with mi.i'm so sensitive.mebbe tht's y u people like to piss me off so much.is tht y?so fine. i'm too tired to argue.
hahaz...i m sensitive...n ppl like 2 piss me off [e.g jaime,wq,jen]...n yar...i m tired n i dun wish 2 argue anymore...tis few wks like argue till siao can...i cant stand it any longer!!![dun tell me 2 sit]
kris-
i'm inferior that's why.. everyone around me is so much better than i am.. everyone. anyone. just pick someone off the street. obviously you can tell they're better den i am.
yup...tts how i feel too...mayb it's inferior complex...but i think its true...everybody IS beta den me...
so many times i feel so hurt by wat you say. so many times.. yet i choose to shut up becos i dont wanna start an arguement. of cos i'm angry. of cos i'm sad. of cos i'm hurt. i'm very hurt. but i'm so afraid to tell you cos maybe you'll get angry. den things will get worse. i'm not blaming you or anything.. i love you just the way you are..
yup...i m easily hurt by wad ppl say...but i choose 2 speak up!!!but wad i get?even more lameness...didnt wan 2 start an arguement...but u all leave me no choice...u all hav gone too far...
u all knew how i felt...but u all juz continue...i noe u 2 having fun ganging up against me...but its juz too much...
esp wq...u saw my blog...n u said sry...but u did it again...den u said sry AGAIN...but u still continued...i juz dun understand y...y izzit tt everytime jaime is arnd u will b liddat?u 2 juz luv irritating me hor.i hav heard enuf srys frm da both of u!
n da 2 of u...like 2 b my matchmaker izzit?or izzit i m always bothering u 2 n u 2 cant wait 2 get rid of me? if tts da case...i m sry...i will not bother u 2 again.
n i dun wish 2 tok 2 both of u together again...its a pain...too painful 4 me 2 endure...mayb 3 is really a crowd...i will b da odd 1 out...i juz cant fit in wif u all...*cry*
everytime i leave da conver,i will wonder...'do my departure even affect them?mayb they r having fun now,not even caring if i m there.mayb they r happier now tt i m gone...'
when gh tell me tt they r worried abt me...i tot tt mayb they really understand me now...mayb if i go bac they will stop ganging up against me...but i was utterly wrong...they acted though nth happen n continue...haiz...y m i stupid enuff 2 believe gh?if they really worried abt me they can msg me themselves...dun tell me their hp spoil...they juz dun hav da heart to...*sob*anyway...y shld they care abt me since they r still having fun?
k...enuff abt them