-Thursday, December 09, 2004
y m i always da odd 1 out?
eversince i in pri sch i m da o x3...still rmb at da student care i m 1.i dun understand y either. wad hav i done wrong 2 deserve all these? many times i wonder y m i born...mayb god made a mistake....or izzit HE made me 2 let every1 laugh at? or vent their anger at? mayb tats the purpose i m born....i m gd at nth...really nth...i m juz a useless person...juz a joke...
last time ppl use 2 tell me its bcoz i cry too easily...but is tat true? NO! i tried changing...i tried 2 fit in...but still i m da o x3...nvm...put da past behind me...now?i made frenz who i think r my true frenz...but wad they do? gang up together 2 laugh at my weakness....bluff me every chance they hav coz i m naive...i tried 2 tolerate everytime they does tat...but wad they do?they continue! so i told them tat i hav reached da limit n they beta stop....but do they stop?NO! they tot i playing wif them n they continue making a joke out of me....wth....
they onli stop when i really blow my top...den apologise...wth...everytime they does tt....so next time i go kill ppl i juz say sorry lar....its enuff i tell u..ENUFF!!I CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER!!!
wad kind of frenz r they?wif them arnd....i dun need enemies...i juz dun get along wif any1...dun noe y...i m who i m. i cant change myself juz 2 fit in...if they wanna b frenz wif me...den beta accept me 4 who i m! i hav no sense of humour!so dun bother testing...esp by being lame
play jokes occasionally i dun mind...but y izzit tat i m always da 1 kena targeted at? coz i dun fit in wif da rest of u? den tell me!!! dun need 2 do tt!! add me 2 conver onli 2 see u all having fun izzit?how well u all get on...den i say sth all start giving comments...like i dun fit in liddat...every word of mine is juz rubbish...all wrong...