-Sunday, January 23, 2005
upset...apologetic...angry...confused...dun ask me y...i dun wanna explain...i juz hate myself...i hate myself i hate myself I HATE MYSELF!!!aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*sob* wads happening????y do things havta turn out like tis?i really didnt wish things would turn out like tis....but did any of u tot how i feel???????????????all of u onli wan me 2 follow ur plans....i m not a dog who must do wad u say...i hav my own fears n feelings....n hav any of u tot how i felt when u all walk in da front n leave me tagging along at da bac???its supposed 2 b my day!yet i actually felt left out n redundant...
u wanted me 2 noe how u felt when ur plan turns out like tis...but did u think of how i felt???i wanted 2 tell u....but it seems tt u wouldnt listen...so i didnt....i m tired of hiding my feelings....tired of explaining myself....tired of life!did any1 see my tears when tis thing happen?
2 any1 whos reading tis but dun like wad i said...get lost!tis is my blog!i write wadever i wan 2.n plz...plz dun ask me wad happen....it would onli bring tears 2 me...dun remind me any more....
n thankz ml 4 hearing me out....hope da next time i tok 2 u on da phone i wouldnt b crying.
n da swenson's wish....wad i really hope is 4 my whole family 2 go eat earthquake....like wad we did yrs ago b4 those things tt happen.2 share it wif my dad,mum,bro n sis....2 laugh like we used 2....2 feel my whole family's presence....but i noe it will nvr happen...but 2 my squad...i appreciate ur efforts.i really do...i appreciate ur gifts...i really do...but 2 wear it in public is too much...anyway....thankz