-Tuesday, February 08, 2005
hahaz..i confirm plans le!!!i going meet ah boi n ah mo den go meet gek.den we will shop coz she haven bought any bottom 4 cny yet...hahaz...den come home eat reunion dinner den go eunos meet jaime,wq,wj n mayb leonard den go chinatown.busy busy...no time 2 rest at all...lol...
haiz..i feel so bad lor....they havta push bac da time frm 6 to 8 coz of me....lol...can juz go w/o me ya? den can hav more fun...feel so bad....haiz...
i always help ppl de lor...do anybody see tt?or all see my faults nia?den need help den rmb me?haiz...everytime ppl ask me do things i dun wanna help de lor...but i will feel guilty...so i will try unless really cannot...but do any1 see tt?or all onli die die wan me help?alot of times my np frenz wan me print schedule did i not help?i wanted 2 say NO! but aiya...help la...but when my printer ran out of ink i ask 4 help did any1 bother?NO!nvm....ask arnd untill i wanna cry le den found sum1 willing 2 help...haiz....but theres a limit 2 how i can help u noe...sum times i really cannot....den say i selfish giv excuses???m i tt sort of person???fine lo if u think of me liddat...i got nth 2 say...n tt can onli mean u dunno me well enuf....so if i ever say a big NO! into ur face...it means i m pissed....pissed wif da effort of trying 2 help...sum ppl dun tok 2 me 1 ya?need help den cum?or everytime tok 2 me is need help de?...i hav seen enuff of these ppl...cant i hav more genuine frenz who dun expect things out of me but let me b da way i m?
juz wish i can find a hole n hide n cry ya?so much has been bothering me....yet i juz cant tell....or i think there will b trouble?hahaz...so ppl...dun ask....i dun wanna say anything...tears hav been welling up my eyes lately but i fought 2 hold them bac...but i dun think i can fight da urge much longer...=( but oh wells...cny coming rite?it will b another new beginning?hope i dun need more beginnings 2 put unhappiness behind