-Tuesday, July 11, 2006
haiz...feel as though i m such a failure
dunno y...perhaps its the vibes ppl give
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dunno y i m super sensitive to ppl arnd me
dunno which idiot taught me to observe ppl
now i m making myself miserable...
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in class although i m the chairman...
i hav nvr done anything 4 the class
mayb its coz my CT has NVR handed anything 4 me to do
its always nat n agnes...the vice n treasurer...
its not because i m jealous...
but wads the chairman 4 if i nvr get to do anything?
tot to myself tt its mayb coz i m not present at assembly...
but my CT like wud rather pass things to my other classmates to do den pass it 2 me
n he always pass dwn work 2 other ppl rite in my face
i tot mayb i m juz being over-sensitive...
but NO
ppl in my class hav realised it too....
den they start asking y...
wad m i 2 say?
den my CT was hesitant in his reply...
gosh...m i really that useless?
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n recently i juz witnessed how ppl tok behind others
my class guys r like all complaining tt they dislike tis someone....
in the end in class always buddy buddy
seeing them makes my heart chill...
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mayb i m trying too hard...
tot i cud jus live my life w/o being bothered by ppl
but i just cant seem to walk away frm the past...
it jus keep haunting me.
just cant 4get everything n start all over...